Catching up – Starting with I – A to Z Challenge, Day 9

I Intended to do all of this yesterday, however I became overwhelmed with the sheer magnitude of EVERYTHING I had to do, and so said forget It….These next 3 posts (because I’m not going to do them all together) will be my catch up posts for the A to Z Challenge.

Following with what I said In the last challenge entry, the subject of these will be Tarot Cards.

Today’s Tarot Card comes from my Mythical Goddess Tarot. When I thought about and had set a reminder for myself as to which cards to do for the next 2 days, I had a card all picked out. However, when I went to the deck to find the card, a totally different card drew my attention. That’s the one I will be going with today.

The card I am writing about is Illusion. It’s from the wind “suit” and number 10.

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(Card borrowed/clipped from a picture found at )

The way things will (hopefully, mostly) go during a post about a card will be a brief summary of the book description, and then what I feel about the card/why I am drawn to it.

Book’s description: “This silly girl is armed to the teeth against the furious imaginary rainstorm she percieves to be lashing her from above. In reality there is just a tiny rain cloud passing overhead, and it’s a beautiful sunny day.” It goes on to say that things aren’t really how we see it – we need to see the humor in the situation/our perception of reality, that there is a bigger picture than what we see, and that there is very likely a vast difference between what we perceive and how things really are.

My perception: First, I took note of the cards’s aspect, Moon In Gemini. My moon Is In Gemini. My sun Is also In Gemini, but when I saw that, something clicked In my brain. She also seems to me to be someone making a whole lot more of things they they really are – almost a “look at me, see me, see how bad things are.” Pondering It, part of why I feel the card drew me to Itself Is that, yes, there are places In my life where I may not be seeing the reality, or I’m concentrating on or making the worst of what really Isn’t all that bad. I fully acknowledge the message she Is trying to Impart, even If I’m not fully able to articulate It or wish to describe to everyone how bad I think It Is. Tho, much like the feeling I get from her – yeah, no, I’ll tell everyone how bad I think It Is. I definitely had that problem today, tho there are other things I’m working hard not to feel the worst about It, too…in my life.

I know I need to move away from this. I don’t like the idea of expect the best, prepare for the worst, because I feel if I completely prepare for the worst, I’m doomed (almost) to obtain it.

The period this covered was Interesting – In the days between when I was so strongly drawn to her and when I finally sat down here and wrote this passage, her message can be seen very strongly. Things truly never are as bad as we my feel they are. There Is a great big beautiful world out there, the storm clouds – while often present (we had a nice rainy day today), are not as bad as we might think, and will be gone soon enough. So I guess the post truly comes full circle – I start off by telling you I felt overwhelmed by all I have to do (I still do, to an extent), and end by acknowledging that I’m may be making more out of some things than is really there. Interesting.

Sometimes I get chills about how accurate the cards are when they talk to me.

That’s all for this letter…

Until next time….

Hidey Ho – Hidey Ho – Who’s that Hiding in that Hole? – A to Z Challenge – Day 8

Mea Culpa – I Had fallen behind in the A to Z Challenge, with a lousy post for G, However – Inspiration Hit – something I Have to sit down and “play with”! If I can be forgiven, that is.

For the majority of the rest of the Challenge, I will be doing my posts on Tarot Cards. I now Have 2 decks, my original Winged Spirit Deck and The Mythical Goddess Tarot. I will draw from both as much as I can, finding common cards/comparable cards as often as is possible. I really love my Mythical Goddess Tarot deck, so I really Have to thank my friend Melyssa for giving it to me. That doesn’t take from my Winged Spirit Tarot deck, we’ve Had a long connection, not just this physical deck, but one before it as well.

I’m going to start with H, and with a post I Had already prepared over on tumblr, I just Had never published.

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The Hermit has been going round in my head. This is the representation in my Winged Spirit deck. Here you will find multiple examples of The Hermit in other decks.

I find this card very striking.

For one, I’m reminded of a time I drew it for a former friend, and shortly after a period of solitude and withdrawal from the world was a reality for that person. Not only did He end up spending time alone for a while – but, much like the angel (Orifiel) depicted in the card, my friend’s period of solitude was spent in the wilderness. And His “wings” were bound, again as in the image depicted Here, in that He had to depend on me for transportation in or out of the wilderness.

Also, part of the reason I was moved to post about it is that our fried Orifiel (the angel representing The Hermit) is not Holding the mechanism of light most closely associated with Him. Upon browsing the site I included for examples of other incarnations of the Hermit in tarot decks, I found the the large majority of them, from the traditional Rider Wait to the The Enchanted Deck, Had some form of light in the depiction. The large majority were lanterns, but other methods were employed – torches, orbs, Heavenly bodies. However, this one does not. Even so, thanks to my experience with it, I’m fully aware of the illumination The Hermit provides. As it says in the description, there are things that can only be revealed or learned while one is in solitude. I know what they were for myself, which were my limits and patience (things again mentioned in the description).

This is where my prepared entry ends. And where, dear readers, I shall tonight. However, I will start with I and J tomorrow, catching up and having some nice conversations with/about my cards. I think I may already even Have an idea about which cards will join me. :-)

Until then….

Truly Feeling the Freedom – A to Z Challenge – Day 6

So with this new blogging challenge I’m doing, every day it’s an interesting process to find a word or theme to Fit the letter. Today’s letter, F, was easy to Figure out.

At church each month there is a theme For the month. This month’s theme is Freedom, and because I am both the newsletter editor and in a Soul Matters group – basically a spirituality discussion group – I know what the theme is by the beginning of the month.

So I’ve been thinking about this word For a little while. What I’ve come up with….

Now, other than getting into certain situations where not having physical Freedom is a matter of circumstance – I think the mindset of Freedom is a choice.

You can choose to let a situation get you down, make you Feel bad about yourself, and you can choose to look at a situation as a problem and a detriment, or you can look at a situation as an opportunity.

I don’t Feel as if this is simply a thought experiment For me.

I was at a point about 2 years back where I Felt very trapped, that I had no direction I could go, that things were impossible. But in the last 2 years, the only thing that has really changed is my mindset.

And I believe that famous civil disobedience movement participants – Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Jr., Nelson Mandela – are all perfect examples of the truth of this. Freedom From worry or allowing the mental to remain unbound despite despicable circumstances does not mean that you don’t acknowledge the reality of the situation around you. It simply means that you do not let it control you, shape your demeanor or that you give into the idea that it’s the end all be all of your life.

Humans are so much more than their surroundings.

I’m sorry, I’m again very tired while I am writing this. I’m going to have to start doing this earlier.

See you tomorrow, for G :-)

All that matters is that this isn’t the End of my Time in this Challenge!

Wow, I’m having yet another hard time finding the topic for today’s Entry. It doesn’t help that Every time I sit down to write, I End up getting very tired, very fast. I don’t even have anything Else I’m writing, so I can’t give you an Excerpt (thank the mouse on the laptop accidentally scrolling down for that idea). And I don’t want to bullsh** you, dear readers. I have ideas for F, R, and a few others – but nothing for E.

I could talk about the Ends of things. Mostly, I’m thinking about the Ends of friendships. Sometimes you see them coming, you’re having a hard time dealing with your friend and their actions, or your friend seems to be having a problem with the friendship, or they’re having a hard time with their lives in general.

Of course, I’m also thinking about the End of my husband’s time at his job. Thanks to the wonderful decisions of the powers that be who decided to buy his company, he won’t have a job anymore after the End of this year or the very beginning of next. I suppose it had to happen one day, but I always hope that having to leave places such as this don’t have to be such that we’re forced out of where we are. It’s amazingly Easier talking to my landlord, for Example, than I thought it would be, so hopefully we’ll be good there, as long as I keep the lines of communication open.

The End of my daughter’s childhood is quickly coming to a close. In just 2 months she’ll be 18. I can’t believe it’s so close sometimes – at other times, her leap into adulthood can’t come fast Enough. And quite the leap it is, she’s planning to move all the way across the country shortly after she becomes an adult. I don’t really know how I’m going to deal with it once she’s gone. I haven’t had my child further away than a few towns or so – 30 miles(ish) is really the furthest she’s been (Even when she’s run away). And soon she’ll be 2000 miles…I don’t know if I can even fathom that right now.

But the title is right. All that really matters right now is that thanks to this Entry, this isn’t the End of my time with this challenge. I suppose in some ways, Even in the End I can End up pulling something out of my brain to post on here….Yes or No?

Decisions, Decisions – A to Z Challenge – Day 4

So, yet another day, yet another post. And as I thought about what word or topic I might use today to write a post about, it struck me what I was Doing. Odd how that happens – it occurred to me, I was making a Decision. And while it had started out as simply looking for a word to fit a letter, I began to ponder the very nature of Decisions. There are a vast number of things about Decisions I could write about, but I will try to keep this short and sweet and only touch upon a few, the ones that struck me the most. As I Didn’t write Down any of the thoughts, I will trying to recreate them to the best of my ability.

A lot of times, I think, when someone thinks about the word Decision, what comes to mind are the really big, often stressful moments in our lives when we have to make the “Big Decisions”.

Are we going to go to college after high school, or are we going to go into the military?
Maybe we should take a year off, live life, and just work for a while, to gain some “real life experience”?
Do we want to marry that person, or are we going to stay single?
What are we going to chose for our major?
What sort of job Do we want to Do when we’re Done?
Are we going to talk to that guy who seemed really friendly even though, truthfully, we Don’t know anything about each other and his attention seems a bit too much, too fast?

You know….the BIG DECISIONS.

But as I got to thinking about this subject – well, for one thing, as I got to thinking about this subject, the number of Decisions we make with little thought could have overwhelmed me, at another point in my life. Now I just recognized it and moved on, in the general sense – but realizing that there are so many Decisions we make that seems small but, really, could turn out to be very big can be almost mind-boggling.

For instance, I remember hearing all of the stories of people who were either Delayed somehow or Decided to make a change in their routines on September 11th, that resulted in them not being at work on that particular Day. Or, what would have happened if you had turned right instead of left this morning when you left the Driveway (if you had that option – I Don’t know your life, so it could be that you really had no choice BUT to turn right – or left – when you Did)?

And for some people, what might seem like a simple Decision to one person, has life changing or life altering affects.

For instance, that Decision as to whether or not to talk to that particular guy I alluded to in the last question, to some just Deciding whether or not to talk to someone would be of no real significance – you meet a Different an interesting person for a few minutes or hours, and then go on with your life. For me, it had a pretty Definite affect on my life.

For another person, what they eat this morning might Do a Doozy on their system – they could be a Diabetic, so how that food is processed is severely Different for them than it is for you (I’d say me, but I have PCOS and that can lead to Diabetes among other serious health issues. I may Discuss that with H.). They could have celiac Disease, not be able to eat anything gluten. They could have a peanut or strawberry allergy, and on and on.

So I don’t think a simple Decisions are as simple as we’d like to think they are. Each Day when we roll out of bed, what our Day hold is Dictated by small Decisions that we make, that for a very long time in our lives, we’re not even aware of. Decisions others, people we may not even know, whose paths we may never cross, affect our lives every Day – through laws, crimes, and just small Decisions such as who turned the corner 3 cars ahead of you.

It can be very scary to realize how much one little Decision can change our lives. But I have made the Decision that I’m not going to let it completely Define my life. Through the (poor, self serving) Decisions the people at the head of the company that now owns my husband’s company made, our lives are changing Drastically. I love that I have something at my Disposal that could completely change other people’s lives for the better, and I feel it would be almost a crime for me not to make sure it’s in their hands, somehow.

What’s more, personally, I have to come realize how much time I have been wasting. And I have made my Decision to focus on those things I can Do that will most Directly affect and help my family. Everything else is under that umbrella – of taking care of my family and taking care of myself. So, I have Decided to focus on selling my crochet and knitting items, and I have Decided to focus on growing my Market America business. Both of them will serve to take care of my family – one can easily feed into the other (I can use the money I make from selling things to buy things or fund my Market America business until it’s paying for itself, I can buy things for knitting and crocheting that will give me the Business Volume I need…etc etc).

And the biggest Decision, I think, is to be EXCITED about all of it. Because of the changes that will be brought about with the Decisions the big wigs at the company made, things could be awfully scary, and not all of it will be easy. But I (and I think my husband) refuse to let it get me Down (for long!)