All Is Actually Alright With The World

You won’t be seeing me very often on here (yet), but I thought I’d pop up and let those who care (are there any?) know that everything IS actually alright with the world for me right now.

I know I mentioned a boyfriend before. Things are still going well with Him. We’ve been together 4 1/2 months now. We are planning for Him to move in soon – not sure exactly when, but He IS here pretty much every day, so it’s almost like He already has. It’s going to be challenge getting His stuff in here, too, but the biggest thing I’m looking forward to is having His bed in my room – it’s a HUGE bed, it’s not PERFECTLY comfortable – mine has a pillow top, His does not – but I slept over there last night and for the first half an hour that I was on that bed, I did not want to move.

Speaking of moving and His moving in with me, I had to move in the middle of November. I found a nice little trailer that suits me just fine – I’ve got to get creative about storing stuff, there’s a lot of boxes still around and stuff that has yet to come from the storage unit – but I like it, and it’s got MY name on the lease and I’m using MY money to pay for it. So I’m happy.

As for NaNoWriMo, well – that book isn’t all the way to 50K, I’m pretty sure I made it to 20K again this year tho. And I’m not done with it, it’s still the main piece of writing I’ve got up.

We don’t have the internet here yet. I’m just fine with that, although other people aren’t so much. My boyfriend uses His phone as a hotspot (that’s how I’m getting on right now, as I make probably the first meal I’ve ever really made for Him – Swedish Meatballs – ever, and one of the first I myself have made in this house. He’s the main cook), but that gets difficult quick. You know how that is.

I’ve been creative the last few months, especially in the last couple weeks. I made my favorite tree ornament for many of my co-workers and friends – and frankly I’m not done yet! I have a bunch more I have to make up, as I’ve got quite a list of people I want to have them. I make the tree ornament, this year in green but it’s been other colors like red and even blue before (that one was for my son), and then stitch each person’s name on them. I don’t just do them for my co-workers, but family members as well, and offer to do them for others that I don’t already know about – some people I just outright ask them for names of their family and let them know they will see soon.

Day 3 & Day 4 – Moving right along.

I would have to say that progress for NaNoWriMo this year is moving right along. Day 3 was actually date night with my boyfriend, so instead of doing any writing, I went to see the sneak peek of Doctor Strange. OMG, perfection. My boyfriend’s favorite Marvel character is Dr. Strange, and He is RAVING about how amazing it was!!! I am, too! 🙂

Today ended up going nice and relaxing, and I’m getting words out and surpassing the daily and overall goal – and probably mind, as well. I’m thinking 7000 for that.

Today’s overall goal:
Today’s total:
Overall total:

For the most part, despite things I have to work through, I’m loving my life and I’m in a good place. Sometimes things get me down, my thoughts and worries and concerns and have to’s get me down, but I know I’m going to push through, and I have a goal, a feeling I want to get to, a place of inner peace.

It won’t be much of a spoiler, but I can say there were parts of the movie last night that perfectly illustrate what I have inside and what I’ve experienced on some levels. Things I KNOW are out(in) there, but can’t explain or prove to anyone else. And ya know, sometimes you don’t have to. In the end, your answers are what matter, even if they make no sense to anyone else, and you have no way to prove everything.

Still, this year I’m moving right along with my book. I might not have written anything yesterday, but with my work the 2 days before, I was already at my goal. And I keep stalling (I’m at a scene that’s all too real for me on a personal level – natural, since there’s a lot of this year’s story that’s at least abstractly going to be based on my life – so, yes, I’m stalling. But I know it will get to a good place.), but I’m going to get to the goal this year.

As always, I have a calendar (okay, that I just put up on my computer) that I found online for NaNo. This is the one I found. (follow link, it’s not my property so I won’t post it here.)

I have a wonderful yo-yo baby afghan moving right along that I mostly work on at work. I’ll post pictures once I’m done. 🙂

Graphic fun (the word up there) for today:

I’m going to make it (even tho it’s just the beginning)

I have a lot going on this month. We have to move again, as we had moved into this apartment in the middle of this month, last year. I’m not learning (a lot of) new things, like last year, so I should have time to complete NaNoWriMo.

Right now, my word count is 3323. Keep an eye on the sidebar to your right for my word count.

And right now, it’s nap time.

Further – total is now 5267. That means 3088 today. I’m surpassing my boyfriend – did I mention I convinced Him to join me? I’m interested to see His book, I’ve caught a glimpse of a small portion. Idk if He knows, LOL.

Now it’s bedtime.

Oh, I’m hoping we are close to finding a place, but I won’t know for a bit.

Starting again – I can do it, I can do it!

And NaNoWriMo draws near again.

I thought I was going to be story-less this year, but as always I slide in by the seat of my pants and I have a story idea. I have a general outline of the main character and some of the other people in her life – they are, I’m not going to lie, a lot like myself and the people in my life. But, then, it’s best to write from what you know, right?

Or is it? My main premise is just questioning reality. It’s something I’ve been questioning for several years now. I’m just going to sit down and start with it and go from where ever I step off. I’ve got a can full of ideas – plot points and twists that I want to put into or try at least to work into the store, all written out on slips of paper – and I’ll draw from them, up to 3 of them, each day. I’ve definitely got to try to do this after work every day, I can carve out 15 minutes or half an hour to sit down here and work on it, at my sweet little desk, and maybe more later on in the evening, depending on the evening, plus ideas and pieces of the story throughout the day at work on break.

I’m not expecting perfection, but I’m dying not writing. It’s truly killing me. But I know I can do this, and I need to find a way to keep it going once I move out of this apartment and after the month is over.

I need to write, if I don’t, it kills me. Plain and simple.

But, enough of that.

My life is happy.

I need to find a new place, but hopefully there are possibilities on the horizon. I have been stressing, but I’m determined, too.

I’ve still got an amazing boyfriend, things only look like they are going to continue on well.

I have to get things with my divorce moving. I’ve been waiting for him to get a decent job, specifically to get the job he’s been wanting since we moved out here. He’s in orientation, so things are looking up for him.

I love my job. It’s difficult sometimes, but I’m doing my best to improve every day. I still want to get my library science degree.

I’ll have to wade through everything money to get to what I want to do. Again, I’m determined. I’ll do what needs to be done.

I’m knitting and crocheting still. I’m able to do it at work, but I’m going to have a table at G*A*M*E next year, so we’ll see what I can do to get things made between then and now. I’ve got several ideas, and we keep coming up with more.

Other than NaNoWriMo, I really need to get more moving as far as my writing. I’ve got other ideas besides NaNo that I hope will keep my floating after November is over. I’m not sure if I’ll ever edit anything, but maybe I could go back to another book, or just work on another story. I have so much possible, I just have to work with it. Lots and lots of things in this computer and other places. 🙂

But, this evening is almost done, October is coming to a close, and in mere minutes (well, 87) it will be November. I must finish up what I’m doing here behind the screen, set up for tomorrow, and get some rest besides.

Have a Happy NaNoWriMo!

Life is Rolling Along.

Wow. There is so much going on in my life, I’m so thinly spread, I can’t even tell you. I haven’t written – not just here, but much of anywhere in WEEKS. MONTHS, probably. I write bit by bit in my journal.

Money is probably the biggest stress. So much to pay, so little to pay it with. I’ll find a way to take care of things, I always do.

I’ve given up on my favorite small business. I just didn’t have the…..enthusiasm? The…..confidence? The…..magic something? To build it. I’m not giving up, I’m not admitting defeat – but there times when you just have to admit and realize when things are just not going to work. Such is so with my marriage – such is so with other parts of my life. I love the business, but I’m just not cut out for it. Thank goodness I didn’t put as much into it as I could have.

My writing is where I need to focus. My little family (me, my son, and now a boyfriend 🙂 ) is where I need to focus.

I’ll be back. I ache to write, I ache to participate, I ache to reach out and build something, those castles in the sky again.

I’ll come back soon with the Round of Words in 80 days again, I have to set up goals.

NaNoWriMo is just around the corner (and my boyfriend has joined in!!!)

Grandma’s Yarn – 100 Word Challenge 07/13/2016

I did actually sit down last night and start this post. I ended up not feeling well and nearly passing out sitting here at the laptop working on it. I’m thinking the culprit was a certain piece of carrot cake that was omg so sweet! I have to admit, I really didn’t like it much, especially after I pretty much had to sleep it off, and it didn’t feel like my pill was working at all 😦 Too bad, carrot cake is my FaVoRiTe!

I know I’ve mentioned it before, but yarn is a big thing with me. I’ve been knitting and crocheting since I was 11. That means I’ve been doing it for almost a third of my life, and it’s something which is automatic with me, working the yarn and making a pattern. People – at work, when they come to visit me, or when I’m working on it pretty much anywhere I’ll bring it – will sit and watch me and marvel at how fast my hands work, and how half of the time I don’t even have to look at what I’m doing half the time. I just go. I have to remind them of the fact that I’ve been doing it for so long, so it’s something that’s been trained into my brain.

So, in some ways this post is almost a no-brainer. It’s quite obvious I’m going to have SOMETHING to say about the subject, I should have no problem writing something about yarn, right?

Of course I did, but not necessarily what you would expect.

As I said, I’ve been knitting and crocheting since I was 11, when I asked my Grandma to teach me how to knit. She taught me to knit, alright, but never how to cast on. I had to teach myself that later in life, when I got over it and had finally at least taught myself how to read a crochet pattern. Shortly after my Grandma taught me the knit stitch, I picked up a hook and taught myself how to crochet, and the real love affair with yarn started then. For years, my Grandma was what I got to call after a while my “yarn dealer” – she’s the only one I got yarn from for years, and even today if she finds some she thinks I might like, or she finds some that she no longer wants, she’ll still give it to me. Albeit, it’s a whole lot more difficult now.

So, this piece came out of the years that I would sit and watch her knit – not quite marveling in the same way co-workers and others might with me – and just be amazed. Until I was used to doing it, too, and then I knew how it felt to be that automatic when my fingers hit the yarn and hook or needles. Grandma and Grandpa’s relationship wasn’t quite like this – but that’s why they call it poetic license, eh?

This week’s entry for 100 Word Challenge (a little bit late, oops!):

Grandpa could spin quite the yarn about anything – the size of the fish he caught on his fishing trip or about doing donuts in the fields in his father’s truck at 11.

My cousins would be mesmerized for hours. But as I got older, I watched grandma rocking in her chair. Her hands worked her yarn with a life of their own as she watched grandpa.

He’d look at her and a look would pass between them.

I see that look again in this hushed room.

Then I meet eyes with my husband, my heart swelling, knowing what she always felt.

Check In – I’m hoping to keep this progress.

I think I did pretty good for these last couple days, it being just a start. Oh, something I didn’t mention here and that I made it a point of doing because they had started to collect up and my daughter and her wife had done for the most part since they got here except for the couple days their traveling companion took care of them – I put our dirty dishes in the dishwasher! It felt good to do it all by myself! LOL, such simple things….now to get people to clean up the house during the rest of the weekend!

I’ll do a link dump – I’ll have to look up what I used to call that – with every interesting thing in my tabs on here tomorrow. Link Lovin’ I think it was.

1. Writing Prompts:
– Daily: I wrote in my journal again today. Not very much, but it was something at least. I also worked on…..
– Weekly: The prompt for this week at 100 Word Challenge is already on it’s second draft. The word is yarn. It was unbelievably easy for me, as should almost be expected – but it’s not quite what you’d expect, either. I’ll have the explanation when I post.
2. Networking: baby steps. I’d put BS (because really in a way it is), but that would just be too funny. from now on, baby steps is what I’ll put for those things I haven’t gotten to yet.
3. Getting my work out there: baby steps.

I’ve got so many other interests and things that need done, so this is that part of the list. These are going to be worked into my life:

4. Read something: I read an article about the Dallas shootings. This is the only kind of mention you’ll get on current events, unless I’m really moved for some reason. I read a few pages in the book I’m working on, Blackberry Pie Murder by Joanne Fluke. So sue me, it’s the kind of book I like to read.
5. Research some interest: baby steps. I’m thinking about coming up with a specific list for this, tho.
6. Crafting: I just finished a basic crocheted hat, worked on it while sitting at my computer and in between calls at work. I’ll get back to the baby blanket I was working on before my daughter asked for a hat with this yarn color (figure I’ll finish up what I have and put it on Etsy), after I use up this color. I’ve got several project to weave the ends in on, and some will go to their rightful owners (co-workers) and some will go up on Etsy if need be. I think I’ll hold on to baby blankets tho, give them to people or sell them to people here at home. It’s always nice to get a nice handmade baby blanket, and even better if you can get it for a decent price from someone – just the cost of yarn, usually. Not trying to make a fortune yet.
7. Tarot: baby steps (gotta take a deck out to have at hand, instead of in my bag). I’d like to collaborate with someone one day on a deck of my own devise.
8. Budget: baby steps (gotta write next week’s budget).
9. Prep for other changes in life: baby steps.
10. Health:
– Sleep: Today is going to be a bust (I’ll probably get in and go to bed at 1 tonight, I’ve felt good enough I didn’t even take a nap today!), but the last couple nights have gone well. And then tomorrow night is Saturday, so… night!
– Water: At least 1 during the work day. I think it was 2 overall today.
– Exercise: So far, I’ve walked to the pool and back. And for the half an hour or so I was in the pool both last night and tonight, I was always moving – swimming (as best I can without putting my ears under the water, I so have to bring ear plugs), pulling my son through the water, just walking around the perimeter of the pool, swimming or walking on the edge in the deep end.